Their Choice .
August 01, 2016
He told me he couldn't afford it .
My heart broke down as I tried to stay calm .
But as the seconds go by and he starts to explain why .
Tears start falling down unexpectedly .
I couldn't keep it in , it was way too hard .
They have put me down , day after day .
As I tried to keep their voices away .
I had hope for I had dreams .
Yet no one cared .
As I stand alone with no one by my side .
Telling me that It might work out .
I should have known that no matter what .
They won't let me go at all .
They can't be blamed , I know they can't .
But I can't help but blame them for something I could have had .
I wanted something , they wanted something else .
I aimed for starting fresh , they aimed for stopping that .
All I ever asked for was a dream to come true .
And just as it was about to ...
They shoved it away .
Not bothered by how many parts of me they took with my shoved away dream .
Ironic how I was fed lies about how possible it would have been ..
For me to live the life I planned for desperately .
I knew it was too good to be true .
I knew that nothing ever goes my way .
But for once , I had hope .
Hope that this was my exception .
But I was wrong .
They have the choice in their hands .
And sooner or later , I have to get along with any horrific option I have left .
Maybe to them , dreaming was a crime .
And now as I sit around in the middle of the night .
I think of how close I was , ...
And how far I am now ..
Thank you for taking my choice away with you ..
I forgive what you did but ...
I May not forget it ..
I apologize , you raised me , I know ..
But You took a part of me ..
That kept me alive .
I can't deal with it .
I just can't .
I am making you happy by ...
Losing myself ...
completely ...
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